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Sunday, 20 November 2011 || 23:59

just an awesome week (: - just going to entirely ignore one part of it . . . achemchem

thank you . to my company for an amazing week . and sticking up with me through thick and thin and everything i went through (: i love you all and you guys are the bestest .

so company 3 is the bestest team and we just about aced everything . jokes :P but we're all like tight as hell now . . . well except for pervy boy (;

and we had the most AMAZING speech everrrr which trumped all the other hahaha 8)

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU GUYS FROM THE BOTTOM OF ME HEARTTT 8) XOXOXOXOXO

omnomnom free macca voucher and i'm wondering who to give it to :P not to kill my healthy eating thinggy

must say this week was the bestest and i had the best fun ever and it took my mind off everything that has happened with everything . even though i didn't get any sleep because of htat stupid report . two all nighters . made my record hahah

hope they all all liked my bullcrap . can't believe that speech was my rubbish writing ._____.

you guys made my week . NO WAIT . MONTH .NO WAIT . YEAR ^^ HAHAHA

words cant describe how happy i was (: thankk you <3

yesterday - went to felicia and john's wedding and i love her dress ajdskfla;lsdkfj 8)

if i ever ever ever get married i want to look at gorgeous as her . loved the backing of it ajskdlfa;sdjf spazzing

anyway then work party . overdressed in my heels and short dress haha (: was so comfy thoughhh !

which louise loved so i'm pree happy with myself ^^

show you guys the pics later of the awesome food 8) it was beau-teee-fulll

had like every type of sushi in the world i swear .

and i'm currently hugging my cute adorbs angry birds toy ehehehe x3 its soft and tres fluffy

thankkk you jo !

wow . i'm so incredibly good at lying to myself .

today was the worst day . honestly .

i can't believe you read all the stuff that i wrote . and that you wont try to understand the fact i was upset out of my mind when i said that jack shit .

feeling shit . i'm disgusted in myself and everything that i said

i'm sorry for everything .

i can't believe you just ignored me and what not just then and left it

i thought i was getting through to you for once and that you were listening to me ~

love is patient , love is kind , love is never changing and never faltering . it never gives up . it does not envy it is not proud

oh and my little man crush (; oh damnnnn

such a secret haha

its nearly midnight and i'm still typing away on this computer . honestly i've been typing this post up since yesterday but things have gotten in teh way and i've been preoccupied trying to fix things .

it was going to be longer and more interesting but i'm much too exhausted to think ): sorry

talking to a friend tonight . or well . he just messaged me and randomly we started talking - those things make my day

anyway we were talking about relationships and what not and discussing opposite sex insight and what not and we realised we were both in the same boat .

i never realised how i just presummed everything was good with him and her just because they always looked so happy and what not and i never realised how much it meant to him even though he tried to hide it

i wonder . for her . if she's taking him for granted . maybe she never realised hwo much those small things she did meant to him and how much it hurt him .

and for him . how much she love him even when she doesnt say so . all the little things .

i never realised how important trust was and how bad insecurity was .

scary thing is . after talking about everything with him and sharing stories . it sounds like he's talking about me . i'm so bloddy oblivious

a song that says everything i want to say - cried over this song haha

i love missy higgins <3 and thank you devin for everything and listening to me , and cheering me up when i was a blubbering idiot . thank you for always being here for me and for all those nights you stayed up just to make me laugh (: ~

I've hardly been outside my room in days,
'cause I don't feel that I deserve the sunshine's rays.
The darkness helped until the whiskey wore away,
And it was then I realized the conscience never fades.
When you're young you have this image of your life:
That you'll be scrupulous and one day even make a wife.
And you make boundaries you'd never dream to cross,
And if you happen to you wake completely lost.
But I will fight for you, be sure that
I will fight until we're the special two once again.

And we will only need each other, we'll breathe together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
When we're the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'll bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another,
'Cause we were the special two.

I remember someone old once said to me:
"That lies will lock you up with truth the only key."
But I was comfortable and warm inside my shell,
And couldn't see this place would soon become my hell.
So is it better to tell and hurt or lie to save their face?
Well I guess the answer is don't do it in the first place.
I know I'm not deserving of your trust from you right now,
But if by chance you change your mind you know I will not let you down
'cause we were the special two, and we'll be again.

And we will only need each other, we'll breathe together,
Our hands will not be taught to hold another's,
When we're the special two.
And we can only see each other we'll bleed together,
These arms will not be taught to need another...
'cause we're the special two.

I step outside my mind's eye's for a minute.
And I look over me like a doctor looking for disease,
Or something that could ease the pain.
But nothing cures the hurt you, you bring on by yourself,
Just remembering, just remembering how we were...

When we would only need each other, we'd breathe together,
Our hands would not be taught to hold another's,
We were the special two.
And we could only see each other, we'd bleed together,
These arms would not be taught to need another,
'Cause we're the special two

maybe one day you'll listen again

and it'll be perfect again