such a spaz morning . with spaz people and what not hahha 
but i'm all good now (: i promise that i shall keep my promise ~ oh try with all my might !!


watching some documentary about the 911 because i'm random like that - the falling man (: its a really good documentary . but rather scary . like the people who suicided from the twin towers as they were burning up . R.I.P.
makes me realise how petty everything in my life seems and what not :s


so today was SAIL showcase and i felt so purposeless because i basically did nothing today D:
oh Erky , Georgia and Nic / Aparna's songs all made me tear up ): why so emotional ??? i shall neverr know .
awesome year photos and year singalongs and year CUPCAKESS 8) must get the pics off anna haha

arvo train was hilarious as usual with my daughter , christine , jiani and joumana (:
LOL we are awesome tailers christine - at the showcase (;

AISH in need of a station date with you (: <3



went to the doctors today and she kinda put everything into perspective . .
i never realised how much the fighting and eveything recently has impacted me and most importantly my body . need to change everything a little bit and treat my body like a temple <--- wow movie quotes are so gayy hahha ^^" temple my ass !


drumming tomorrow 8)
have nooo idea what i shall be wearing tomorrow and i cbf to care . probably wearing the same stuff as last week or something (: my wardrobe is tres boring (y) not wearing my pretty clothes !!



OMG my mother has learnt the art of facebook stalking . i have never been so proud of her haha (:

missing my sister so much ): she's at the most amazing beach house ever with her friends asdfjkl; . so jealous !! shes sending me pics to make me jealous and texting me random stuff :P










i wonder if i'm meant to be feeling jealous or anxious after what i hear . you with other girls when you knew that i wasn't going to be there ? 
for some reason i feel nothing . 
if you want this then you'll try . 
i'm trying to learn to trust you again .  like you wanted
probably just my cute guy stealing everything away ~ (: ehehhe






okay going to keep watching more vids and downloading songs (:
got i new obsession with cassie and ajsdkfl; i want her abs !!
 





more later




ciao







<3

I like it loud
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I wanna shout
Turn it up turn it up turn it up
Loud
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I wanna shout
Turn it up turn it up turn it up