long time no talk .
whatever .
let's get down to bizz because seriously this bull crap is seriously annoying the hell out of me .


so you think you know EVERYTHING eh ?!
i know you're talking about me . you ALL are . so . time you hear the other side of the story . and some truths




1 . YES . i got my best friend back .  the first person i ever told absolutely everything to and who KNEW ME FIRST . and who i trusted . did  i ever tell you i have trust issues ? OH WAIT . you never really talked to me (Y) yeah . just happened to be on my birthday because . iono . he remembered ? and we spent the night saying sorry and explaining the past year .

2 . LOL . i did NOT get an ipod . friend wanted my mp3 . so we swapped . i live on my music (Y) you are one funning kid Lawrence :) HAHA

3 . i did NOT lie . i did NOT do anything wrong . keep talking behind my back . go for it :) i don't care . i really don't anymore . you heard half the story .

i was going to say YES to you and YOU LEFT AND BARRED ME UNTIL 3 DAYS BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY . do that maths . that's like iono more than 1/2 a term . yes i tried to text you . you ignored me . you never came up to me and said hi . you saw me on the train and look away . you talked to my friends and sat with them . didn't acknowledge my prescence (Y) .  YES you missed out on your chance . YES you hurt me . and i MOVED ON . so NO . i did not lie about anything . and there's a LOT more where that came from . so PLEASE DO keep giving me the silent treatment and pretending i'm invisible and whispering and pretending not to look at me and what not :) because . unless you're going to COME UP TO ME AND ASK ME MY SIDE OF THE STORY then whatever information you think you have on me is entirely bogus ~


and because each time you do . i get stronger :)
it hurts . but it's through these times i find out who my true friends are and what i'm REALLY made of .


i'm finally truely comfortable in my skin for the first time in my life and i'm not let going to let ANYONE pry at that away from me .
ups and downs . smiles and frowns .
a new year . a new attitude . a new me .
NO i'm not going to cry over nothing PSHT . what do you take me for anyway ?? >.>""

i know where i'm going with my life .



if you don't like it
BUILD A BRIDGE AND GET OVER IT
[ quote from ye smart food tech bud ]


and some really awesome book called the bible says
"If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also. "
matthew 5:39
jin . your fail give me strength :) love you my twin <3


my run helped . :)  no i don't be angry . i'll control my anger . i pounded it all out on the pavement . 2 hours worth . legs sore . but it feels good . stress buster HAHAHA . therapy




so YES . i'm a bitch . i'm a liar . i'm a whore . i'm a slut . i'm heartless . i have no life . i have not friends .



BUT yes . i'll keep smiling .
because . hey God told us our life is difficult then we're living it right :)
and yeahhh . tell me i'm a hypocrite blahblahblah . it's all my fault blahblahblah . ýesyesyes . i'm all that . i'm no perfect . i never wish to me . then i'd never learn from my mistakes and that would be terrible >.<


but i never asked you to judge me . and spread to everyone what YOU think is the truth .
if you've got something something to say to me . PLEASE . say it to my FACE and not behind my back . love to hear from you :) but you're too scared and what nto . i'd rather you just zip your lips .


ciao







<3

She fell to the bottom of her life
this wasn't meant for towo
she struggles to find herself in time
but she can barely move