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Monday, 4 April 2011 || 23:57

Church today . :)

Sermon was REALLYY good . I didn’t yawn ONCE in the sermon 8)) that’s a record !!

Pastor J was talking about sinning and how we can stop out sinning and what not .

And the four ways we don’t deal with sin:

· Blame someone else

· Let sin fester until we act on it *bom bom BOMMM*

· Pretend you didn’t really do it

· Fall into self pity

NB: those are just references for MEEE but you can read it if you wanna ^^””””

Random thing . . . you know Gothic heros . . well Cain was the first Gothic hero in history :) . like Cain from Cain and Abel . . the guy who killed his bro cause he was really jealous that God look favour in his bro and not him . . well he’s a Gothic hero . >8))) pretty wicked . . just a random fact

Sunday school after . Little kids are REALLY smart o.o smarter than I ever realised .

They were mucking around so much me , Fontane and Lawrence couldn’t control them . And there was this spinny chairs . And well you can guess what happened next ;DDD . . we were like OMGG when we were kids spinny chairs was the coolest game EVERRRR 8)) so we started spinning the kiddos around and around . BAD IDEA . They went WAYYYYYYY to hypo though D<<< and we had to steal the chair away . L and I squashed the chair behind like three tables but SOMEHOW the managed to get it out again o.o I have NOOOO idea what they eat but I’d hate to get on their bad side D: they’re so frikken strong >.>

After class me and L had a really good D&M . Just talked about heaps and heaps of stuff :) if you’re reading which I highly doubt , but still . . THANK YOUUU :) been a really hard couple of days and yeahh . . so thank you :) I love chatting with you about random crap . haha

Oh and part of our convo . . . what I wanna do when I grow up :). . . well I’m just adding to my list now >>8)

· Learn hip-hop

· Learn break dancing 8))

· Buy a sexy convertible – if I’m crazy rich then I NOBLE :DD AND a motorbike 8))) I really want one . they’re sooo wicked 8))

· Scrap the one before, LEARN PARKOR 8))) then I can just jump buildings and save a tonne of money ;DD

· Go to ETHIOPIA !! Don’t ask . . I just LOVE the country and I REALLYY wanna go to one of those orphanages and help with little kids cause they’re so cute and they’re always so happy and they make me smile ^^

· Learn the drums and the electric guitar . then join a band

· Cut , then dye and bleach my hair insanely >8))) – new look , new life , new ME >:)

After , we all just mucked around . :) talked with some other people . . Jono AND Lawrence , if you quit orchestra I’ll have to shoot myself cause I’ll be lonnerred D<<< so DON’T QUIT !! haha then I can tease you peeps about random crap ;DD E HEH HEH

People are so judgemental . I wish they’d stop judging on the way they THINK things are . I hate the way people assume things . About everyone . I mean seriously , if you aren’t tight , then don’t say crap . . everyone has a reason for the things that they do .

I’m going to try not dislike him anymore . As hard as it is . I guess the sermon today made me realise that it wasn’t right t0 dislike people . And I guess today L made me realise just HOW much its effected me and the way I acted . I realised how much I changed and how I refuse to trust anyone anymore and brushed everything away. .sorry . and yes , I don’t like talking about my feelings . . sorry , just not a me thing . if you HAVE to talk about it . . . talk to me face to face . .

You know what , as scared and freaked out as I am of the future , and as much as I hate life now probably cause I’m stupidly overdramatic , I know I’m going to be alright :) whatever happens now – screw it , I know that the future will be brighter . ^^

where did i go wrong ?

i lost a friend , somewhere along in the bitterness .

And i would have stayed up with you all night ,

had i known how to save a life