|
|
♣ These twists and turns of fate
Sunday 29 September 2013 || 22:37
WOW I
haven't posted in over a year. I wonder if I still know how to do this blogging
stuff - everything changed ever so much... apologises for a crappy post
Looking back
at my old posts LOOOOL I was so young and immature I swear - not that much of
that has changed anyway. I can't believe that it's been six years since I've
met most of my friends now, and when all the most amazing memories started
<3 (if you guys are reading, I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH!) Spent most of the week
just numb, sobbing and reading my warm and fuzzies - oh and scoffing down
the chocolate that some people put in there for me. I miss everyone so
much :( I'm such an old fart, unwilling for all the change in my life to occur
- I'm so incredibly excited to start ticking off all the stuff off my bucket
list, getting a job, working, going to Africa… but I miss everyone a hell of a
lot… I feel so blessed to have known such an amazing group of women, and other
friends, and even more blessed to call them my friends <3 I don’t think I’ll
ever be able to meet such gorgeous people, inside and out.
The last two
weeks were so much fun, Lipsync, Graduation, Formal – oh and Afters – I HAD MY
FIRST LEGAL DRINK/S! And WOW how different life is outside a selective school, I
swear I felt like the tiniest person in the room (in more ways than one). I can’t
wait until our formal, and getting to see everyone again – well the entire
cohort and getting to say and tell everyone the things I forgot to tell them!!
I swear I've
lost my mind this past week, I honestly have no idea where my brain was landed.
I keep having the most ridiculous thoughts scurrying through my mind, and I'm
not sure whether it's actually mine or my delusional sleepy mind. I don’t know
whether to trust any of my decisions anymore, or if I’m turning paranoid and
insane again – if I’m pushing the ones closest to me away because I’m scared of
change … or me…
 While pondering the most random things in life, I was thinking about
what life was (I know what the heck is wrong with me). I think life is like a
ferris wheel. It’ll keep moving and never ever stop. You can feel like you’re
on top of the world, or crushed at the bottom – but no matter what happens,
things will always look up. It’s always about the perspective that you look
that things, you can either be terrified (like when you’re at the top) or you
can take it as a new experience, something to treasure and enjoy with those
close to you.
Okay I think I’ve officially lost the purpose to my long analogy
But hey – note to self, HSC isn’t the end of the world no matter who,
or how many, people tell you so. No matter what happens no one cares about
studying now, and life is too short to not have fun *aint nobody got time for
that :P*
Going to try start my training regime again – like I say at the start
of every week. Hopefully I get my fitness up and can come close to running at
the same pace as Melva.
And I should more probably… no most definitely start studying again…
what is wrong with me? GAH
I shall leave before I start another rant on how I hate the new speedo-wearing, money scabbing, self-centred monkey of a PM..
GOOD LUCK FOR HSC EVERYONE!! :) leggo smash it together <3 I never hit so hard in love All I wanted was to break your walls |
